Saturday, February 28, 2009


Self-doubt


Having this sudden bout of self-doubt. Possibly triggered by totally mis-timing the murmur today and doing all the demoralising MCQs. And complicated by the lack of confidence of completing the run on Sunday..

It is not just the usual anxiety and stress of exams.. This time, there is a certain component of fear. A very deep-seated fear. A fear of thinking that I am prepared and yet fumbling at the exam itself. AGAIN. Maybe also because this time there is much more at stake - my entire electives, the expectations of my tutors and my frens, my confidence in future tests.. there is little to gain if I pass, yet so much to lose if I fail..

This is a burden that I will have to bear myself.. a phobia that I will need to overcome b4 getting on with my training.. I am grateful for all the help that has been rendered to me - my tutors for taking time and effort to teach me, especially Dr Tay for giving me extra tutorials even though he is not my assigned tutor, and my friends who help me collect cases for me to practice..

I hope I will not let you all down.

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Thursday, February 26, 2009


Dies.


In the frenzy of the posting, I have completely forgotten that the 10k run is this Sunday. Dies.

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009


You know you're a photographer when...


(Found this on the net..seems quite widely circulated..haha)
  1. 1 GB of memory lasts most people a month but barely lasts you the afternoon.
  2. You know what aperture-priority means.
  3. You delete more photos in a week than most people make all year.
  4. You need just one more lens.
  5. You’ve crawled on the ground to get a shot of something.
  6. Your camera equipment is worth more than your car.
  7. No one else brings a camera to an event if they know you’re coming.
  8. Your family doesn’t recognize you without a camera covering your face.
  9. You have thousands of pictures and you’re not in any of them.
  10. You’ve been up before dawn or out in the freezing cold or even done something semi-dangerous… all for a photograph.
All of the above are true for me except points 6 (I dun have a car) and 8 (not so 夸张 la)...=P

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Monday, February 23, 2009


Atheist Life




A perhaps over-simplistic view of "atheist life". And over-generalizing of religious life if you wan to nit-pick. But represents approximately my world-view.

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Wednesday, February 18, 2009


被骂


But it is good. I can only become better. =D

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Tuesday, February 03, 2009


Mediocre


It seems that I have been mediocre in whatever I do in the recent years...

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