Wednesday, March 26, 2008


Mild hedonia


Almost forgot how completing a write-up can give you a small high liao... haha.. it's been a long time since I've written up on a long case...i think the last one was during fammed posting, around november (if you exclude the CMPS)...

Alright...I should start on my 2nd write up soon.. psych is getting a teeny weeny bit boring (well, maybe not that teeny weeny)...

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Saturday, March 22, 2008


守得云开见月明


ENDURE. For our time will come.

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Monday, March 17, 2008


Low Energy Level


Dunno why my energy level so low... slept for like 4hrs after I came home... now still feel tired... haiz

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Friday, March 14, 2008


DSM IV criteria for depression?


After 1 week in psych med, I do not think I have clinical depression. (contrary to what some people have said =P) But somehow, I miss my happy and crappy posts... seems like a long time since I have posted something cheerful...urgh.

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Monday, March 10, 2008


A moment of rest, a moment of reflection


What a action-packed 1wk hols... Ate 2 buffets (one sushi, one dim-sum), played squash, played bball, watched a meaningful movie, went to the Zoo (!!!), played mahjong, and even went back to the wards once...so full of action it was, that I deliberately kept the last 2 days free to nua at home.. (ok that was bad phrasing)

This short break has also given me some time for reflection. What did I reflect about? A lot a lot things... probably more than what I can possibly adequately express here. Some of my thoughts are reflected in the previous few posts already.. (ok bad pun there)

I guess a lot of things just boils down to "life". While I would like to believe that I am in control of my life, in the end, I still have to concede that there are certain things beyond human power. Call it luck. Call it opportunity. Call it probability, randomness, chance...etc. Yup. As much as I hate to use the word. I concede.

What to do? Well, I guess I'll just have to trudge on bravely, and perhaps blindly, bashing my head again and again in the process. There are just so many things that I do not understand, or perhaps, in certain cases, many things that I am unwilling to bring myself to understand. I'll have to learn the hard way then. By being hurt, then will I become stronger, more mature.

"You are an anomaly! You understand? An anomaly! You cannot expect others to believe in what you believe, live up to your values, your expectations. The majority of the world doesn't think like you do! We were all brought up in a sheltered environment. We don't know what the real world is like."

I think that was the gist of what a good friend told me. Actually I agree. I am too naive. I trust too easily, believe too easily and perhaps, love too easily. And I think I knew this all along, but those words still jolted me. But, but, still. I choose to carry on, stupidly, stubbornly. What do I hope to see? To achieve? Am I trying to prove something? I am not sure myself. Well, if the real world really gets too overwhelming for me someday, it wouldn't be too late to become more "奸" right?

Hmmm. I'm not sure I'm making sense. Sometimes I feel that these kind of thoughts are hard to put into words. Or maybe because my vocabulary is limited? Before ending my post, allow me to add just one more analogy to my previous post:

If you have friends taking the trip with you, the journey somehow seems shorter, more enjoyable.

Goodnight everybody. Life beckons.

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Saturday, March 08, 2008


Can't beat life.


Life is like taking the public transport. While you are waiting for a it, it just never comes. Then when you have given up waiting, that damn bus just keeps coming. And sometimes in order to reach your destination, you have to go through a frustrating number of transfers. Sometimes you miss your train/bus, other times you oversleep and miss your stop. Once in a while you take the wrong train/bus. Some people get away for not paying their tickets. Some people pay their tickets all their life and get caught on the one occasion when they have forgotten to pay.

I could probably draw another thousand analogies, but you get the idea right?

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Friday, March 07, 2008


Boozzze


3 guys sitting along Singapore River drinking beer.

Lol. How sad.

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Monday, March 03, 2008


With regards to the previous post


Somehow, some people interpreted my previous post in a way different from how I meant it, and some questions were asked. So to answer some of them...
  1. No, I am NOT attached. Never was, not now, and not in the foreseeable future.
  2. No, I DO NOT have a 'target'. I am in absolute refractory period.
  3. No, I am NOT hopeful. I am in absolute refractory period.
Dun ask me how come I am asked this kind of qn. Anyway, the line in the previous post was just a quote from the trailer of "Leap Years".

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Saturday, March 01, 2008


Is it really worth it?


"Better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved before..."

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